The other side of the battle is that I am so lucky to have Jake, and for him to be doing as well as he is is a gift in itself. American thanksgiving has gotten me thinking about my blessings once again. I found an excerpt from a blog (http://www.aholyexperience.com) that talks about thankfulness with this quote as the context:
If anyone would tell you the shortest, surest way to all happiness—
he must tell you to make it a rule to yourself to thank and praise God for everything that happens to you.
For it is certain that whatever seeming calamity happens to you, if you thank and praise God for it, you turn it into a blessing.
Could you therefore work miracles, you could not do more for yourself than by this thankful spirit, for it heals with a word speaking, and turns all that it touches into happiness.
… it be the noblest sacrifice that the greatest Saint can offer unto God.”
This time last year we recieved Jake's initial diagnosis - HLHS (which turned out to actually be DILV and HRHS) - and I went through some of the most depressing and sad days of my life. I questioned everything - and found very few answers. Fast forward to a year later and here I am sitting in my kitchen typing this blog while Jake sleeps in his Father's arms and Georgia snores in her bedroom. I no longer take anything for granted...I am thankful for everything. I have days when I lose my perspective, but when I find it again I know without a doubt that I am blessed and that God is good through it all. Tonight I find myself seeking that perspective once again. Maybe a good night's sleep will help to restore it. Christmas is right around the corner - Jake's 1st Christmas! - and I want to enjoy it to the fullest and experience all the joy that the season has to offer for me and my family. So here's to finding that perspective, and to being thankful and happy once again.